spiral down with me

I was a girl for a night I would love for just a night and forget about you the following night One night I would cry myself to sleep, other nights I would just sleep I would change in a night, make decisions in a night I would change my entire personality for a night I would be yours for a night, belong to someone else the next I would come alive, just for a night Fill your bed for a night and sleep in a cold one the next I'd tell you I love you for a night and leave you the next I guess I am a one night girl We just need to see who I'll be when I go to bed tonight

sometimes you do everything you can to be okay but it just isn't enough some people are born incomplete there must have been a set of instructions for this absurd thing called life somehow, I must have missed it sometimes you become willing to throw everything away for the slightest possibility of feeling something sometimes you prefer unhappiness to a lifetime of normality how do you get out of bed when you think nothing matters anymore how do you insert yourself into a life that you're not a part of it was hard but I think I finally understand this isn't a place to be if you can't feel anything it's cruel, it breaks you, saddens you makes you happy, fills you with joy and excitement and everything you've been through in the end is worth it and for people that are like me, we just stand by and watch from the outside the passing time just changes us, but somehow it never heals if you aren't broken like I am, And if you're intact   I hope t...

Do you care about anyone other than yourself or do you always pretend to Do you take pleasure in tricking me into believing that you'll stay or is the pleasure you get caused by the fact that you know you will leave Have you always acted out searched for answers at the bottom of the bottle It seems sad now, how little I knew you Tell me, were you the one that was cheap or was it me Did I always change so fast? accepting things I know won't last were you always so indecisive and when did you first become so insensitive It seems funny now, how we became different people trying to find meaning in something so futile How we made everything so complicated Tell me, was I the one that was fooled or was it you Do I need to care to tell you this I used to be able to, but I'm left with nothing now Maybe I was the worst in all this I should've known not to trust you but maybe after everything, I wanted to believe in the simplicity wanted to take a chance an...