Six

It wasn't him that I loved

But I wanted to

I loved his smile

I loved his disregard

I loved that he didn't know me

I loved how easy it was to know him

I loved the possibility

I loved the loss

I loved continuing something I knew wouldn't last

I loved that he reminded me of someone I loved

I loved that he didn't hurt me

I loved wanting him to return

I loved the conflict

I loved the clarity

I loved the dilemma

I loved that he pushed me

I loved that he wanted to believe that I could stay

I loved wanting to believe that I could stay

I loved the regret

I loved the person that I became when I was with him

I loved how futile his problems were

I loved that he loved me

I loved the simplicity

I loved the chaos

In the end I loved everything about him, except for him