Self Evaluation

You've made many mistakes

And given up a lot to be where you are 

You've broken many hearts, including your own

You changed with time, but never healed

And replaced old mistakes with new ones

Became insensitive 

Lost the emotions that you once wasted so frivolously

Things that used to matter became a memory

You adapted

Either loved too much or not enough

You did everything either too much or too little

Everthing remains incomplete

Always in search of something, without knowing what it is you're searching for

You never found what it is

But you never stopped looking

Simply existing became a burden

Every new page you turned over had the same story written on it

But you never stopped repeating it

You couldn't move on

You thought you had outrun your problems, but they have a funny way of catching up

You loved but never fell in love

Never decided on what you wanted

Never chose who you wanted to be with, just went along with it

You didn't want to be alone

Never cared about anyone enough to miss them

You were sad, but never cried

You wrote about your problems for years, yet never solved them

When was it that you became one of them?

pek çok hata yaptın

oldugun yere gelmek icin pek çok seyden vazgeçtin

çok fazla can yaktın, kendininki dahil

zamanla değiştin ama asla iyilesemedin

eski hatalarinin yerini yenileriyle doldurdun

duyarsizlastin

cabuk harcadigin, zamanında bos yere savurdugun hislerinden siyrildin

onceden onemli olan seylerin izleri kaldı geriye sadece

adapte oldun

ya çok sevdin yada yeterince sevemedin

herseyi eksik yaptın veya biraz fazla

hersey yarim kaldı

hep bir arayış, ne aradigini bilmeden

o aradigini hicbir zaman bulamadin

aramaktan hiç vazgeçmedin

sadece var olmak bir anda zorlasti

kapattigini sandigin defterler hep açık kaldi

devam edemedin

kactin ama yakalandın

sevdin hiç asik olmadan

ne istediğine karar veremedin

kimseyi secmedin, hepsini kabullendin

yalnizliktan kactin

kimseye onu ozleyecek kadar deger vermedin

uzuldun ama ağlamadın

yazdin yazdin sorunlarını, çözemedin

sen ne zaman bu hale geldin?