Most days

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sometimes I feel invisible

as if it's not my life anymore

as if I'm watching it pass by me and there's nothing I can do

I'm not in it. I'm an insignificant part of it

sometimes I don't matter

sometimes I don't want to matter

sometimes I don't even know who I am

what music do I like?

what's my favorite color

who am I?

who do I care about

who loves me

sometimes I break, I shatter

sometimes I put myself back together

other times I stay broken

I lie awake most nights

most nights my thoughts haunt me

I'm alone most nights

some nights I don't want to be alone

why am I alone?

why am I alone even though I'm surrounded by people?

why don't I matter?

what do I do wrong?

what is right?

sometimes I feel empty

sometimes I don't even feel

I wonder will I ever be complete


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